self-explanatory

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Party

Keys To Success #3:

Just do it like this.

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K.I.A.

RIP:

iPod Shuffle

July 23, 2007- July 30, 2009

OMG. 7 days past my 2 year warranty, that was like $60.

FML.

I guess I'm back to CDs for the time being.

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The mixtapes

I would have never found myself listening to mixtapes that Maddie made me over a year ago.

But in a weird series of events, here am I.

The mixtapes just sat there.

Untouched.

I was naive. Inconsiderate. Blind.

As I am currently listening to these songs that Maddie compiled for me, the rough part of this experience lies... in every word that I so carelessly, and inconsiderately looked past.

My realization comes a bit somber.

As I'm trying to answer my own questions. Reminiscing, for the most part.

Why couldn't I appreciate all of this when it actually mattered?

When it meant everything.

And how can someone take so much for granted?

I guess I'm living proof, that its possible.

The Disclaimer: This isn't some immature act of desperation. Nor a plea for some second chance.

Its not about that. It hasn't been about that for a while. And it may have been a desperate attempt at one point in time, especially if this was being written months and months ago. I wouldn't lie about that.

But I'm past it, for the most part.

And anyone who doubts me, has every right in the world to.

Its taken a great bit of time for me to get past Maddie.

And just as much time to regain my credibility to people, when I say we're just friends.

But at this very moment in time, I speak with a sort of positivity.

Forward thinking? I guess? I don't really know how to describe it. Haha.

But I'm honestly compelled by how things have turned out. And how they will end up.

Maybe, my luck is nearing the bend.

I think it is. Lol. Who knows?

The Moral:

It's really difficult for me to avoid making the same mistakes twice.

I never change. I don't like change much.

But I am acknowledging my wrongs... right here.

And maybe this isn't the proper medium. (I know people will always question my intent.)

but...

I never want to take the simplest things for granted, ever again.

There's a lot of beauty in the liner details.

(I'll have to thank you in person for showing me that, Maddie. If for some goddamn reason, you happen to read this before we actually talk about it. Haha.)

Listening to:

San Diego Mix

The Sleep Mix (*The Trapeze Swinger by Iron & Wine)

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Question Of The Week

What's worse...

iTunes having a mind of its own, and self destructing itself?

or

It taking down your iPod at the same time?

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Inconsistencies

I've been slacking a little on these past couple posts.
As my brother would probably put it.

Note: I haven't been purposefully posting videos, so I can lazily avoid my day-to-day activities.

But if there is a legitimate excuse to label this lack of words, it is merely because this past week has been quite uneventful. Slow and uneventful.

1. I haven't worked but really 2-3 days each week for the past 2 weeks.
2. Most of my free time has been spent comfortably in my wing of the house, due to a certain financial dilemmas.
3. I'm already 3 and a half weeks into my cast. And soon finding out whether I have to endure another 4-6 weeks. (As I am writing this, I am currently drinking a cup of milk.)
4. And a certain someone's phone has gone AWOL, thus making the majority of my days even more unbearable, uneventful, and impatient. Sigh? Lol.

(I just realized I bit my tongue. It had to have been fairly recent. Haha)

In any sort of positivity, I have carefully contrived a list of things that I want to accomplish in the first week of release from this cast.

(Pardon my use of another list. I'll keep it figuratively short.)

The Official List Of Freedom:

1. Workout for 3 days straight. Be best friends with a treadmill.
2. Go to the beach for the first time this summer.
3. Do something significant with your left hand/arm.
4. Put on a long sleeve (anything) without looking stupid. (Including sweaters and jackets.)
5. Tan. But only the left arm.
6. Stand in the rain. Preferably with a girl whom you have interest in. Lol.

:)

Listening to:

Set Your Goals - This Will Be The Death Of Us

Taylor Swift - Fearless

The Title - ...Is A Real Band EP

Notorious BIG - Mo Money, Mo Problems

Oh and one more thing. Fuck iTunes.

And now a word from our sponsors.

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RAAAAAAAANDY!

Anticipation Of The Week:
Funny People
7.31.09

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Fall 2009

My classes this fall, in theory.

I don't know why FCCJ has to make the page layout so hip and aesthetically pleasing.

Lol.

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This semester...

Makes me feel really queasy.

I have a lot of uncertainties.

1. Can I do 5 classes?
2. Biology online?
3. The guilt and concerns financially. (Both this semester and for UCF)
4. Getting Into UCF.
5. And will the loosely discussed plan for housing work out in the spring?
6. Will all this stress translate as a reward when I graduate?
7. What the fuck am I really gonna do with my life?
8. Where is the line drawn between being an idealist, and being content as a realist?
9. At what age, do I need to start freaking out?

Above, was the gradual decay of my mindset.

The more I think about #1, the more I inevitably think about #9.

And my procrastination and hesitation is only making it worse.

I think I'm going to vomit.

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Duke Nukem's Disease

(:44 seconds) hahaha

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Televised

I know I've been talking about this way too much recently.

But this is the last time. Swear.

If you're bored, or if you even care. Lol.

Maloof Money Cup will be on

NBC (Sunday 2pm) & MTV2 (Wednesday 9pm)

Here's a pretty well edited TV spot for the MMC:

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The Importance Of Morrisey And Marr

The Smiths.

Where have they been my whole life?

But better now then never.

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Last night...

was spontaneous.

First, we almost drove to Orlando, in a last second instinctive decision between 4 people.

But fell short due to natural occurrences, as far south as Daytona.

4 hours pass.

And with 2 breakfast burritos resting inside of a full stomach.

We found ourselves watching the sun break through the horizon, on the JB pier.

Refreshing. Liberating. Spontaneity

This is how every day should be spent.

Oh and somewhere in the midst of all this...

Tonee's cell phone caught fire in a microwave.

Hahaha.

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I hope these are tax deductible.

(There's a couple more of these lying around here somewhere.)

3:41:50 AM

Nothing good, happens at this time.

But it does make a good story for the morning.

And lots of leftovers.

Ok. So I've just decided, everything good happens at this time.

Lol. Here's to Summer '09, so far.

Cheers.

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How the Maloof Money Cup results should have been?

1 & 2, could have gone to either Tommy Sandoval or Chris Cole.

3. Torey Pudwill (Robbed!)

4. Nyjah Huston

5. Really should have been Sean Malto.

6. Ryan Sheckler (if he wasn't the Etnies poster boy, it would have turned out this way.)

7, 8, 9, 10. All 4 of these guys could have flip flopped around, it wouldn't have mattered to me.

Either way, I'm happy that the "high contract/ high salary boys" (Lutzka, Rodriguez, Sheckler)...

...didn't rake another 100,000 dollars.

Final Thoughts: Torey Pudwill, robbed. Fuck the corpo judges.

MMC2009 is fully streaming in HD: http://www.fuel.tv/MaloofMoneyCup

oh and the real results, if it matters: http://skateboarding.transworld.net/2009/07/12/2009-maloof-money-cup-results/

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One Armed Scissor

Day 3 of the cast.

My life has never felt so slow.

Summer always feels ridiculously fast, too.

So I guess, this should make summer go by interestingly.

Sigh. (I actually just did.)

A lot is on my mind right now. :) haha

And I have a lot of newly discovered free time.

The last time I had this much time to myself, I was like 10, and I spent the whole summer watching Nickelodeon and Food Network.

Listening to:

The Secret Lives Of The Freemasons : Weekend Warriors

& The Wonder Years

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WTF

speechless.

http://www.crailtap.com/c3/newrandoms/minifive_jwray.html

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The War

"I've succeeded at my attempt to surface a months work of photographic evidence to convey the irresponsibility of this youth."

Correspondingly...

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2017796&id=1112670210

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2017881&id=1112670210

And if your not friends with me on facebook...

...there are larger problems at hand. Lol

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Keys To Success #2

Tonight, just so happened to be the first night of P90X.

Recap:

Couldn't do the normal first day - first week schedule of Chest / Back, because:

1. It involves a majority of push ups.

(Which I can't do with a fractured left wrist and a sprained right shoulder.)

2. It involves the use of a pull up bar .

(Which I don't have currently, nor do I have elastic bands.)

Solution:

I did Ab Ripper (which is normally scheduled), and Kenpo (in exchange).

Keys To Success #2:

Don't ever dare work out remotely approximate to your last meal.

Fucking worst mistake in the world. Hahaha

Fortunately, it was just day one.

And now a word from our sponsors.

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Seclusion.

I don't like it here.

I talk to myself entirely too much.

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Post-War

I'm burnt out on this computer device.

But at least I can say, that I've succeeded at my attempt to surface a months work of photographic evidence to convey the irresponsibility of this youth.

Wow. That sums up the photo album quite nicely. Hahaha

I gotta really figure out my flickr dilemma, though.

It would have looked alot better with less compression in file size. But oh well.

So what do I do now?

I feel a little flustered. The pixels of this screen have made me a bit delusional.

(Like the smell of spray paint or gasoline.)

That can't be at all healthy.

Derek just said, "i'm putting you on suicide watch."

The Tunes That Kept Me From Insanity:

The Movielife - Forty Hour Train Back To Penn (Mon 11pm)

Adele - 19 (Wed 1am)

Incubus - Moments And Melodies (Wed 2am)

Sum 41 - All Killer No Filler (Wed 4am)

The Streets - Everything Is Borrowed (Wed 4:30am)

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